Over March, I made more of an investment in my collaborative projects than I did in my creative ones, with both Croshare and The Portsmouth and Southsea Consortium benefitting from more time and energy than each one had been given in quite a while. However, that’s not to say that I didn’t poke around a little bit in my individual projects, too.
I guess the most significant thing to have happened over March is the change in name for this blog. It now shares my (new) name, which I chose to reflect each of my parents’ identity in who I am. Considering the impact of the decision, it was surprisingly easy to make. I feel that to make this the essence of who I am online, rather than using a name that no longer has any great connection to who I am and what I want to do, will create a better connection between me and certain aspects of my creative work. I know this won’t be immediate, and that it will take me some time to get back into the swing of things, but I can already feel myself wanting more and more to connect with this space that actively shares a critical part of my identity outside it.
The name ‘tokyotombola’ came from the influence of amigurumi and other Japanese crafts in my early creative work, and the fact that the results of my creative efforts were a little more of a ‘pot-luck’ kind of affair rather than something focused – or strategic, even. Since my choice to diversify my creative activities and to try and host each of these in places and spaces under its own name, to use ‘tokyotombola’ had felt less and less appropriate. That name, and what it represented, will always have value for me insofar as it represents a great deal of who I used to be – without that past, I wouldn’t have my present, and I wouldn’t be able to think about my future.
Thinking back on what I wrote last month… I’m sad to say that I didn’t get an interview for the PhD for which I’d applied at Winchester School of Art. It doesn’t mean the end of my academic aspirations, but a third PhD rejection in four years is really starting to make me think about a) the value of getting one at this time in my life and b) the value of getting one at all – especially in art, design and media-related areas. Is this something essential to who I am and what I want to do?
Working slowly on things is going well, despite not going all that quickly (for some reason, this has frustrated me a little bit, but if I try and plough through something very quickly then I rapidly lose interest; it’s a bizarre, complete and perfect contradiction. The Five to Nine is up and running, although content for this remains very much in the planning stages. Threadbare Magazine has been put on the back burner once again, a casualty of the increased workload related to my collaborative projects. Teapot Magpie is still there, doing its thing, but ‘its thing’ doesn’t feel as though it’s going to be enough. Something has to change with my designing and making endeavours, but I don’t really know what.
On with (what remains of) April.